How I wish I could really do this. :/

Hey peeepos,

Hehe. Didn't post yesterday and sorry for that. Mapled the whole night hurhur. Leveled up 5 times yeah!? Cool or what. Ahaha. Perhaps not. Bluek. Okay, so yesterday was like this,

Since it was a Thursday, I had training in the morning. I rmbed clearly that the weather was shoooo cool and relaxing enough to make me sleepy. Ouche. :( And I rmbed most clearly that yesterday's friendly was really suckish for me. I didn't perform well and etc. Did really really bad. I know that I'm gettin' from bad to worse. During the last drill, I cried. Ahh. I just can't stop repeat those foolish, stupid, idiotic mistakes. CAN YOU FEEL ME? This feeling sucks. I can feel that even if I got into nationals, I won't be used much or perhaps ONCE also won't happen. I felt really. Okay, this feeling can't really be described. Just like you want to do well something but you just don't know why you can't. Yeah!? *breaks down. After training, after somewhile, I felt much more better. Crapped and even stalked people's FB profile pictures and urm. Laughed at them. I knew it is bad to do it. But. Hehe. Just can't control eh. x) Then some went home, some ate lunch tgt. And I was one of the latter group. In the end, left me, sinkee, wenyi, christin and melissa. Ohgosh. Crapped really much. Keke. Joked here and there. Laughed till stomachache. Ilikethis. ^^ Bought some longlong sweet and kinda played one game. Okay, KIND OF only. It's likethat, one person bite one end of the sweet, the other person bite another end of the sweet and eateateat *boomzxs. HAHA. understand people? xD But we didn't kiss dao lah, LIKE DUH~ Only me and wenyi sort of succeeded cause we're one of the daring ones. But didn't kiss! Notenote* Played the see-saw near the school. Haha, all those fun jokes. Really fun. :) After that, went to the Alice Mini Mart and bought drinks then bused home. Reached home @ about 6. Woah. Hee. :/ Bathed then Dinner followed by Laptop. :D

What about today? Sort of a fun day too. Went to sherrie's house for CIP artwork. Okay, we started off by drawing on the canvas. It turned out to be naise in the end then we painted it. Ohgosh. Screwed manzxs. Like seriously. ._. Perhaps cause we didn't know the rigtht way to paint using oil paints? :O We decided to redo and we played with the oil paints. Abit. And there were some paint marks on my legs. -.- Hehe. Ohoh. I'm fallin' in love with her cat! :3 Awwwwsh. She was really cute. Aigo, :3 Hehe. Went home @ about 5 and took a catnap afterwards. Woke up and there's my dabao duck rice on ma table. Hoho. Nomnomnom. Naise. ^^ Watched tv and use laptop. Later chnl 8! Heard that romeo died in this episode. :( Me no like. :(

Hehe. Gonna to play audi now I think. Hurhur. Or maple? Omo. Haven't even started on projects. *headache. :(

It's not that I do not want to change them. It's just that.. They became a habit. I really did tried. Really. :( Nationals is coming. And this happens. Come on manzxs. Urgh. Pisshhh.