Time passed so fast

The first week of O's is already over. It just whizzed past us like zoooom. Almost half of the papers is completed !!! 

But, I am feeling very insecure of my grades. Especially for both maths, I have darn carelessnesses. I have high expectations for myself in maths. So I'm very disappointed in myself this time round cause I know I could have gotten full marks... Freak this shit man. Trying to get over the fact that what's done is done, what's over is over. I just hope that the bell curve won't be that high such that I lose my A1 T-T cause the papers for maths are not difficult. :-( I'm very worried man. Feeling horribly terrible. Someone help me :(

Not only that, my English and SS... I just hope that I get a B3 for eng and pray I don't fail. If not, I'll just... Idk. SS, seq was completely fine. I'm very happy about it but SBQ wise, idk. I think I could fail this section... Hope my Geog pulls me up!! And for bio (paper2), it was alright! I'm glad that whatever topics I'm not confident in didn't come out! :D

That's all for the update on my O's. Well, I'm apparently not satisfied with my performance. I could have done better. But what's over is over... (Trying to get this into my head) hope I'll do better for the rest of the papers in the upcoming weeks! Goodbye :)

Hate it when something budges me so easily... Hate it that I'm not one who can get over something easily...

Battle field

Yup, today's the day where all of the graduating students are stepping into the battle field. To be precise, 1 more hour from this moment onwards.

What we have been preparing for so long, 4 years to be exact, are going to be put into (good) use later on. And from this day onwards. I'm super duper worried that I don't fare well for today's English paper :-( my language isn't that good but still, I am hoping for the best... Even though a lot of people tell me that I can do well and will definitely do well, I'm still nervous and worried.. Thanks for those who've been encouraging and assuring me. But I don't feel prepared at all (is this normal???) 

Oh well, exam's starting in an hour's time. Prepared or not, I have to give in our best. We have to. We can do this!!! Lets enter this battle field and conquer the war together! :-)

Gratitude

Hi guys!!! Ok so yesterday's put graduation day! But I'm not gonna go so much into it now because I'll spend a lot of time blogging about it and time will be wasted (again).

I used insta to upload the photos we had taken ytd and my insta just kept crashing. I spent WHOLE LOT FREAKING LOT of my time trying to figure out what happened. And damn the hell I wasted so much time -.- that's why I'm not gonna update about my graduation day as I don't wish history to repeat itself. I'm extremely angry and frustrated last night that I really slapped myself. Haha 'whuuut' you may think but yeah I did that.

Anyways,

The orange letter is from our chem teacher, mr chew!! Haha it's so cute I swear :')

Gift from my form and co-form teachers!!! :)

A puzzle piece from our principal to encourage and motivate us like what she has always done! :')

Really blessed to have this bunch of amazing teachers! :D

Alright, shall get off now before I start to get distracted and blog even more stuff -_-

Goodbye!!!

Note to everyone, note to self: 1 more day to Os... 

Throwback: Graduation day

As I promised, I will do a follow up on my graduation day! Ahaha wa I actually wanted to do this like a few days ago but it took me really a long time to upload all these photos :-( so I drag and drag an dragggg and here I am! HAHAHA.

Ok first of all, ms chong had her speech (her last speech :/) with us on that day. She even gave us a piece of puzzle as a form of motivation.

(Here it is in case you forgot how it looks like :p)

After that, the chairperson and the vice-chairperson from each class went up on stage to give the speech, thanking all of our teachers for their hardwork and efforts, etc. Every one of us were to write what we wanted to say to our teachers... But I didn't. :/ I was lazy and I forgot to write. Ok I felt guilty. :( (I ought to) we at first felt that our class' speech was gonna be screwed up b'cos not everyone wrote, but oh well with jianhua who is an eloquent speaker, everything turned out fine! ^^ phewwww. We even stood up at the end of his speech, saying '我爱你' to our teachers in front of us xD

And next up wassssss, THE BUFFET. The food was ok la, not very very nice those kind. And I'm once again disappointed by that there was no chocolate eclairs T-T hahaha it's ok anws, I ate chicken wings :p after we ate, we just kept on taking lots of photos and polariods!!! Hahaha enuf said, shall let the photos do the talking. :-)

 

My girrrrrrrrls :*

    

Cheryyyyyyl :)

    

Liann :) (my boat partner HAHA)

    

Chiaaaaate :)

   

Lynnnnnn :) (no selfie :()

   

Tjinyang :)

   

Xiechao :) (ok sorry to xc, I'm lazy to crop the pic and you can see him tiptoeing HAHAHA)

    

Cheeann :) (friends for around 6 years plus?? Hahaha)

    

Dingxuan :)

   

Dino :) (the small boy tsk)

   

Ruixin :)

   

Farizah :) (oops another pic not cropped HAHAHA) 

   

Jazzzz :)

   

Sin Kee :) 

Wenyyyyiiii :)

   

(Part of my teammates!! Hehe)

Polariods !! :D

   

Okkk that's all. Say goodbye to our pedo faces :p

4 & 29

Hi guys! Ok I'm here writing with a happy mood! (Sort of) Don't worry that I'll be moody again like the previous post ahaha :p

Yipeeee. Tomorrow's the graduation day and I can finally get to see my dear friends!!! :D miss them loads :-( it's been really tough  (and lonely, wellll, at least for me) cooping myself up at home to study and study and study. I totally have no life these few days. (Oops sorry for a little teeny weeny rant here ahaha) sooo tomorrow's gonna be a happy day for me! :) the thought of tomorrow just lifts my mood up hehehehe.

Oh and there's gonna be buffet tomorrow! (I guess) Am hoping eagerly that there'll be chocolate eclairs hehe. (Yeah yeah, me and my Choco eclairs again) it's been so long since I've eaten one okkk :-( and food cheers me up! Not to mention that chocolate does cheer people up :p 

Anyways, just a gentle reminder ...

ANDDDDD

Yes yes freedom! After Os. I'm gonna fly, soar whatsoever up in the sky and dance around! Have so many things in mind that I plan to do! Well, just haven't come up with a 'to-do' list, yet. HAHAHA.

Goodbye! :-)

Almost broke down suddenly just now.

A feeling of helplessness, lost and worry just suddenly gushed through me.

I don't know what I'm doing now. I can't be feeling this way now when we are 6 days to Os... 6 FREAKING DAYS.

Am I doing enough right now??? I don't know. I don't know if what I have done is productive. I don't know if I should do this now or do that later. Everything's suddenly just feel so messed up.

I just feel like crying. 

I can't stop myself from thinking about the freedom after Os.

I can't be distracted now. This isn't the time...

I got to focus. But as the days get near, I just can't freaking FOCUS.

Fml.

Maybe I'm just having some pms tonight, right now.

And I hope all my worries at the end of the very last day are unnecessary.

Last day

Today's the last day of school, err or rather our last 'proper' day together in school. I can't believe my 4 years in dmn are coming to an end soon... 

IT'S JUST SO UNBELIEVABLY FAST :-(

Last day to be doing work together in class. Last day to chitchat and laugh together at the canteen. Last day to ... I don't know. There's so much things we've been doing together and I am going to miss these moments, these memories so so so much. And I must say, the only thing I'm going miss about school is my friends, not the school itself hahahaha. Sorry school but yeah. :(

Anyways, 9 more days to Os and I'm getting very very VERY excited that it's going to endddddd. Really can't wait. 

Hahaha but for now, let us just chiooooong ahhhh to put a sweet ending to our secondary schoo life! :')

Work hard everyone!!! You can do it, I can do it, WE CAN DO IT. 

16 days

16 daaaaaaays.

 Whoa it really scares me to think the time's passing real fast...

There's so much things to do but so little time !??????? Like 2 weeks?????

Can I have 100 hours a day T-T

Shit balls I'm getting so stressed that the sides of my head are balding. 

SCREW Os. 

I just want to get it done and over with. 

But. I don't want it to arrive so soon lehhhhhhh.

Waaaaaa ahsjalaljsjskal T-T

Whatever it is...

& Let's work hard and get over this shitassjalajakak (sweetly??) with no regrets !