Today, I woke up having a bad feeling. I dreamt of myself getting a single digit for my olevel. But, some of my friends around me actually dreamt about bad stuff happening to them. And normally when people are scared of smth, they'll dream smth bad about it isn't it? Why is mine so different???? People say dreams are opposite... I really hope mine isn't this way.
Everyone - my friends, my teammates - tells me that I sure can do it ; I will definitely do well ; I confirm will get 10 and below, I do not have to worry or be afraid. Thanks for being confident in me guys but really, it sort of makes me feel even worse. I really can't help it to feel scared, to feel worried. What if I disappoint you guys??? What if I disappoint myself... By telling me all those means giving me more hope... I really do not want to feel disappointed :-( Tbh, I have high expectations of myself which means higher risk of getting disappointments isn't it...
Idk. Idk how I'm going to survive tonight. My nervousness, my anxiety, my worries all escalate as the time ticks by. I don't feel tired at all. How am I going to sleep T-T and when I can't and don't, I'll just keep thinking about tomorrow. All the 'what-ifs' will just flood my mind.
Luckily I have this blog as an outlet for my feelings haha or else twitter will be flooded with all my tweets le ahahaha. Will be having lunch with my teammates after the release of results tmr!!! Finally, miss them a lot :') Hope that everyone will do well and meet their own expectations so that we can party and celebrate like crazyyyyy.
Idk what else to say already. Whatever I want to say is just about the same old worries and fears so I'll just keep repeating the same thing if I continue hahaha. So, good luck and all the best for those who are taking back their results tomorrow!! :-)
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